I Wanna Be a Rock Star!

What's up yo! Ok, why can't I blog on much more than things that happen in my life? I'm sure better things will be written about, I will surprise you one day. And you won't believe it! But as for now...I will tell you about my life. Things are good. It's weird to say this, but I just really care for my ex-mother-in-law. She is an awesome lady in the regard of helping me. If I didn't have her, I'd be pulling my hair out! For real! There was a time where I didn't take the time for myself to do the things that recharge me. Time to oneself is very important, whether married, kids, single...you get the point. But in all those stages, I have just now been comfortable and enjoying time to do the things that interest me. And I am starting to not feel guilty of it. It was just before, I felt guilty because I had the responsibility being the SOLE caretaker of my child. Even when I was married. And time to myself was unheard of. But thanks to her, things are getting back to being balanced, key word.

This weekend, I had the opportunity to go to a show in crack town. It was the band that I sacrificed my life for to go see in one of the most unsafe areas in town. J/K. No sacrifices here. The band I went to go see was called A Kiss Could Be Deadly. I am so glad I went, the band was amazing. Lauren, the lead singer, she's so rocker! I love it! She's a petite gal, but can rock the whole room! Seeing people perform their music just keeps giving me motivation to keep doing mine. I haven't danced like that in a long time. Seriously, I have the songs in my head still...and I am STILL dancing. It's the kind of music, that just makes a body move, what can I say? It was a fun time. And I enjoyed myself.

If you can't take the heat...

This week has been so hot here in So. CA I think it was over 100 this weekend....At the office I work at, we always have the air on. We wear gloves and masks and run around the office working on patients. We are an ortho office. Well, Monday at 4, the air completely stopped. We had a blow-out, all the offices in the building. It went in 5 min. from a comfortable 73 degrees to up to a hot 80. Luckily, we were done at 5. The last patients were hard to work on. Our gloves soaked underneath and not to mention under our masks. It was a weird outage, 'cause we have 5 chairs in the back office where we work on patients, and some of them were reclining, and some weren't. The light above the patient I was working on, was half dim. Then, after that. I had to go home to my place to where the air sucks again. I have it set to automatically cool the place to 83. Most of the time lately, if I am lucky, it cools to about 89. Ha. That sounds so bad! I don't know if it is accurate. It's not like scorching, but pretty hot. Also, I have a fan in the rooms that are on a lot. Well, I hope all of you are finding ways to keep cool!

It's party time!

So, this weekend was nice and HOT...the weather was crazy, I was in the pool on Sat. night and it started raining! Weird, but at the same time, the neatest thing. The pool wasn't even that refreshing cause the water was hot. Oh, well. This Friday, a friend of mine came to visit. It was really cool hanging out with him. He lives in LB, so we don't get to visit too often. So, D, if you're reading this, I enjoyed the visit, and come by more often! And I can be silent for as long as I need to be, I will challenge you any day. Um, what else, I am planning a first B-day party for Luke...in two weeks. Ahh! The first year flew by sooo fast! He has been walking for over a month now. My little goober. Yes, one of many nicknames. Ha, this is funny. That reminded me of when Logan was little, he was trying to learn how to say Logan, and he didn't do "L"'s very well, they ended coming out as "N"'s. He had it all messed up, he used to introduce himself as "niga". People would look at me like, "um, WHAT is his name?". This evening was fun, church was good. It was hot, but good. ok, i will go back to my party planning now. late.

I think my head is going to burst!

I just spent the last hour with blogging pro Carlos (and by the way Los, the icon for me to link you at this time is missing, so sorry, I can't link ya) as he went over HTML, iChat, Site Meters, RSS, Net News, what the tab button does, what an apple looks like, and how to scroll with two fingers on my laptop. (Just kidding, he was making fun of me cause I scroll with both my index fingers, says it looks like a dog digging a hole...must be a left-handed thing.) He showed me so many things I have 3 pages of notes. And no, I am not afraid to admit that I don't know what the heck I am doing, I am starting from square one here. Anyways, I have a lot of homework ahead of me so I must get started. First I would like to announce that I now have friends on my sidebar! Yes, yes, thank you. (I am not done yet, so if you are not on there, don't fret, this is part of my homework). I am now on iChat, my username is greneyedsparrow with one "e". Friends, don't forget to add me to yours. So, anyways, this is a step further for me in this blogging world.

So, today I met with a really good friend of mine. Well, we are like strangers now. We don't catch up as often as we used to. So, it's just really weird, how do I explain? hmm. She was my best friend when I was married, her husband was best friends with my husband. Their kids would hang out with mine. We hung out A LOT. We had like everything in common. Then, what happened? LIFE. STUFF. CRAP. SIN. This has been boggling my mind since we said goodbye like 5 hours ago. Since my husband left, my friend and her husband had an almost divorce experience as well. Well, they are working as a team on their marraige, where as I didn't have that option. Anyways, I guess the reason I am boggled is because of old familiar feelings that come with having shared so many memories with certain people. I know that this friendship was great. But it is just that. We are still friends, but it probably won't be what it used to be ever again. But that is ok. Because I know there are different seasons of life and right now the Lord is blessing me with some awesome new friends!!! And He places certain people in our path for a reason! I thank the Lord for the friends that I have had great memories with, but I also thank God for the memories to come!

Man, I'm just not gonna live that one down

This past Sunday, I sang my first solo at church. I didn't just sing it once, but four times. And I was still in the middle of a cold. What a challenge, but I was determined. Oh, where do I start? Well, everything was going pretty well to start. We did the sound check and things were good. I was a bit nervous but that is to be expected. Um, well in the midst of things, there was a mix-up with the vocalists mics and somehow my mic that the musicians were counting on me using ended up with someone else...oops. So the band was sort of freaking out that they couldn't hear me in their in-ears. I didn't know what was going on 'cause I couldn't hear me either. Well, it was patched and sort of we just had to deal with it...couldn't do a whole new sound check with the band, that would take too much time. So, anyways, I was already nervous, but this made it harder. Oh well. And on top of it, I was forgetting the words. I actually had the words in front of me...but they were in small print on a stand a couple feet away, and the lights were shadowing them. So, first service had the honor of hearing me share with everyone some freestylin'. The words I had forgotten were "you are the only firm foundation". So as I was singing, I got to the part "you are the only" oh man, what is He...?....then the word "perfect" came out....ok....perfect what....quick, think of something.....?!?....I actually said "LOVER". "You are the only perfect lover". Right, duh, everyone knows He's such a great lover. ohh. sorry carlos, if it makes you feel any better, yes, I am embarassed, but I feel like, why deny it? Let's just laugh about it instead. hah. So, that was the first service, now for second. Second was going a bit better. The first time, sang it through, the second time, not so much. The intro to the song was starting and so I was getting ready with the mic. As I lifted the mic up to my mouth, the cord had come unplugged from the mic due to my foot having been on the cord below. So, I tried to casually place the cord back in and I could feel the countdown as the measures kept getting closer to go time. And Carlos so graciously says, "No pressure." lol, yeah, none here. So, I don't end up getting it back in in time, it was being stubborn. But, Sarah saves the day and chimes in the first verse for me!!! yea. Teamwork, I love it! It was perfect, like it was supposed to be that way the whole time. So, it all worked out. And actually, even after all that, I still don't think these things are as big of a deal, they happen all the time, just so happened they all occured in one morning.

fiesta or siesta?

Today was crazy...The end of the working week for me. And we, let me tell you, were definitely overworked this week. You know when you just get so tired, that you just start making no sense and everything is funny and silly? Ahh, I LOVE that! When everyone is laughing at the same stupid jokes that don't even make any sense. We even had the docotor in on it. That's when it all comes together. Good times. I thank the Lord for laughter. It is good medicine. I am feeling better.

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I can't breathe through my nose. I am so congested. Summertime colds, what a bummer. blah. This better go away soon! In the name of Jesus! Any suggestions how to rid of this in a timely manner?

boogie monster

Not that many peeps are reading my blog at this time, but here's a recap of the past few days. Tues. was the 4th of July. Good times. There were two swimming pools and two bar-b-que's involved at two separate places. Went to my dad's house early afternoon. Then went to J-Rocka's shindig in the evening for the fireworks. I don't have too many pics, just a few. My arms and legs are sore from holding Luke all day...had to keep him from crawling into the pools, he's everywhere. Um, then yesterday, I had to go back to work from having a whole week off! Man, didn't want to, but 'tis life. Then, when I went to pick up the boys from daycare, this is really gross. One of the 3 year old girls there was picking her nose...eeew, then she showed it to me. yuck. After she had announced it to everyone what was on the tip of her finger, she proceeded to then direct the object into her mouth. I tried to stop her but it was too late. And, she enjoyed it. ugh. I hope she's not showing Logan this. That's all I have to say.

Love makes the world go round

So i was listening to my iPod today, and on comes Rick Warren. He is speaking on love. Love is why we are here. We need to love on others as ourselves...not as easy as it is said, but even just conciously attempting is recognized. So, I have been thinking lately, I need to step out of my box. I just know how good it feels to have someone that barely knows me to go out of their way to make me feel comfortable, that is love to me. So, I realize, I need to be that person more often.

my first post

ha. i did it! step one has been completed. now to write. gosh, where do i start? well, for one, i am happy to be back home from a busy week. this week was spent from tues. to friday at the Purpose Driven Worship conference at Saddleback. it was so amazing but tiring at the same time. just starting early with worship, to speaker, to afternoon classes, then back for evening concerts. the classes were superb! i learned about songwriting, arranging music, and even attended my fellow friend Carlos' blogging and podcasting class...(yes, this is where it all began...) so, yes, this week has been awesome and just felt a renewal within and feeling motivated to do more and better. THEN, i get home. and the enemy just wants to attack... i feel so exhausted (yes, getting 4-5 hours of sleep every night might have something to do with this.), i get a notice in the mail from my lawyer stating i have an outrageous balance due and i have 10 days respond. now, at this point, i know it's satan trying to get under my skin. he wants to see me fold. so i pray. i know that this has got to be a mistake, so i will just lean on Him and keep trusting. then this morning at church i feel the presence of the Lord. he is so good. i am singing on stage and there i am not the most comfortable, it is still a stretch for me. i do not like the spotlight or to be the center of attention. i don't like being watched. i am more of the behind the scenes kinda person. but the Lord has placed me there for a reason. he has given me the gift of song and i truly believe that i must use it for Him, not me. so whether i am more comfortable mixed in the midst of the rest of the congregation than on stage, i will sing to him with my heart. i know He will bless me for doing His will.